To say that I left the gynae unaffected yesterday afternoon would have been a lie, after all I went to see her because I knew my progress has been deteriorating. I haven't been feeling quite right the past couple of months and I know I had to go in for a follow up. I was actually pretty discourage.
There was a moment when Dr Ann was scanning me and she looked me in the eyes and said " You know this is unusual right? You are an unusual case. It's normally not like that. It's something about your body's mechanism that keeps popping up all these." Yes, the fibroid's been popping up like popcorns, both big and small and they are covering my womb. Dr Ann has suggested removing my entire womb before and yesterday she did talk about it. However, I wanted to prolong this as long as I can so I asked her if she has any other ways to help me instead. She suggested putting me on meds -Esmya but I had to go through a series of blood tests to see if my body is up to it. I pray it really does work on me.
I have battled this for 10 years of my life and it's so easy to cower to my circumstances. However, I refuse to. I refuse to allow myself to be a victim of my own thoughts and failure. For as long as I can, I will do whatever I can in my physical ability to overcome this area, to be a good steward to this body that God has entrusted me with and the rest I live it to the sovereignty of God to heal and restore me back to health.
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